Posted in Embrace your truth

Let Go and Let God

Who did you used to be
I was always lacking trust, in trusting that things would be ok for me. I didn’t have any real direction and felt very lost.

When did you know you wanted to change
When it started happening and I got a glimpse of what life could be like with God. An older friend showed me her church and discussed her life style with me. I was 17. She didn’t tell me the stories of the Bible just about how she lives ect.

What patterns had to break in order for you to become who you are now?

Putting other relationships first. I would often over analyse things- I’ve had to learn to take a step back and give it too God.

Who are you now?

Still growing but enjoying it everyday.


Posted in General

Don’t loose heart

Dear Heavenly Father, I just want to say thank you for your teachings and lessons within this season, thank you for your warmth and  for setting the standard to strive towards. Thank you for all the souls which have encountered you and been encouraged by you through this blog. Lord we need more of you, place a new song in our hearts and enable us to grow in our relationship with you. Lord teach us how to have patience with others and how to value, loving and understanding others to a new depth. Help us to see with spiritual eyes and to hear with spiritual ears. Thank you for being our source, and any resource we have regarded higher than you intended bring into accordance to your will. Let our desires be aligned with your desires for us. Lord help us to remain teachable and I pray that you will flow through every person who has ever come into contact with this blogs, let there be an increase in every seed you have planted. Any hindrances in their lives let it be removed, place your wisdom in our hearts and let it overflow in our lives, perfect the fruits of the spirit within us, shape us O Lord into who you want us to be.

In Jesus Mighty Name Amen

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The first time I came across this picture it really made me think. The quotes I have always heard are: ‘Treat people the way they treat you’. Another one I have heard is’ what is the point of me being nice to people when they just throw it back in your face’ or ‘From now on I’m going to be a cow (words not so pleasant as this but you get my drift) because I’m fed up of being taken for a mug’

These sayings have come from a place of frustration, from a place of doing good towards others and it not being reciprocated back. I must admit I have been there so many times and it can be so disheartening giving 100% and not even getting 50% back.

Those times when you are the one making more of an effort in a friendship/ relationship, giving your workplace your best while others are getting away with doing the bare minimum. Someone being rude to you for no reason, being there for other people when they need you and it not being returned when you need it. And so it goes on.

It does suck at times and you can understand how the frustration starts to build.

I noticed this video on facebook, and it made me think deeper about the reasoning, behind our frustration.

She said I pray more now to love than to be loved and to understand rather than seeking to be understood. She said we do not know love like we should and mentioned that  we do not know unconditional love because when people stop stimulating us, we stop loving them. 

Do not say , ‘I will recompense evil’; Wait for the Lord , and he will save you.

Proverbs 20:22

Do not rejoice when your enemy falls, And do not let your heart be glad when he stumbles. Proverbs 24:17

But I say to you who hear; Love your enemies, do good to those that hate you.

Luke 6:27

A few weeks ago, I had a situation where I was giving 100% to my role at work and I felt like people above me where always on my case and one day there was an issue around a service user and I was so passionate about it, then they shifted the focus onto me, and I flipped. I have not been that angry in a long time, I was so angry to the point that I just cried. And that same week I felt rejected and left out by friends and family.  I wrote a Facebook status venting my frustration, of my discouragement (cringe I know). As I was crying out of frustration and feeling like everything I had done for other people was being slapped in my face.

God whispered, this is how people have treated me on many occasions, all the goodness in their lives which I provided and the sacrifices I have given have not been appreciated. It made me think about all the times, I had basically thrown Gods amazing grace, mercy and blessings back at him. All those times I choose to do something displeasing to God to benefit my instant gratification instead of following God. All the things I have taken for granted. I started to think why do you keep on loving us Lord, we really do not deserve it. But you continue to give 100% all the time, you never grow weary.

Then after I finished praying, I went back on my Facebook and was amazed to see how friends from different religions were speaking to their friends of their faith, about the hope that is within me. How it has inspired and encouraged them. It was really reaffirming how much God needs us to constantly represent him within every setting, and how people are secretly watching your actions. Right then, I started to understand the first picture ‘Don’t treat people how they treat you, Treat people how God treats you’.

Now thanks be to God who always leads us in triumph in Christ, and through us diffuses the fragrance of his knowledge in every place. For we are to God the fragrance of Christ among those who are being saved and among those who are perishing.                        

2 Corinthians 2:14-15

I know its hard to keep pressing on and doing good to others, one of the fruits of the spirit God wants to perfect in us is long suffering.

Long suffering: Having or showing patience in spite of troubles, especially those caused by other people. Some of the words in the same category  are: tolerant, forgiving, meek, charitable, forbearance.

How does God treat us then?

Isaiah 53

He is despised and rejected by men, A man of sorrows and acquainted with grief. And we hid, as it were, our faces from Him; He was despised, and we did not esteem him. (verse 3)

Surely He has borne our griefs And carried our sorrows; Yet we esteemed Him stricken, Smitten by God, and afflicted. (verse 4)

But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our inequities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him and by his stripes we are healed. (verse 5)

All we like sheep have gone astray; We have turned, every one, to his own way;  And the Lord has laid on Him the iniquity of us all. (verse 6)

Jesus  was stoned, mocked, spat on, hurt for us, and he carried on and persevered for us, for the chance for us to be saved. God sent his only begotten son to endure everything , for You. To save the same people who turned away from Him.

Basically, look unto Jesus, God made us in his own image, strive towards Gods standards. We are a work in progress, allow God to make you over into who he needs you to be.

And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall  reap, if we do not loose heart. Galatians 6:9