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God will never leave you

I grew up in Jamaica and when I was young my mother went abroad to work.

That day changed everything. I remember crying my eyes out, especially knowing I would stay with the one woman I feared the most. My aunt. Long story short, living with her and my cousin was the most painful experience. I felt trapped and alone. I would get beaten for telling the truth and I had no say in the matter. Most times I would just say I was wrong, because she never believed anything I said. This carried on for years, but at 12 I had enough and tried to end my life. This didn’t work out though, because all the methods I thought of would cause me more pain. And that was the last thing I needed. It’s like I was drowning and I felt like a coward who couldn’t find a way out.

School life was no better. I was bullied in primary school but my high school it intensified. Those I called friends, one by one joined my bullies and turned against me. There was not one day I didn’t face the looks, the bad mouthing and the rumours. What made it worse was that I could not cry about it. Ever since that day when my aunt asked me why I was crying for my mom and disregarded the sadness I felt, I did not cry because I knew there would be no one to console me.

I questioned why God was doing this to me. I felt unloved. My aunt despised me for being my mom’s child (something she constantly reminded me of) and I blamed my mom for letting me stay with her.

For years I could not forgive and from time to time the memories would resurface. But after rediscovering God’a love, I have begun to remove those lies I came to believe, from my life. I am able to say that my life matters and that nothing could separate me from God’s love.

I won’t lie there are still times I want to give up, but it has become so much easier because I know God cares and even if I gave up, he would not leave me. And that is all the reassurance I could ever need.

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The Change- KDA

Who did you used to be?

The unfolding of certain events and the manner in which I acted or reacted, coupled with what others had said to me and about me made it evident that something was not quite right. I was at times an unpleasant person to deal with.

Outburst of Anger and rage seemed to find themselves in the driving seat as they pleased. Not to talk of the types of passengers that were being picked up along the way.

When did you know you wanted the change?

The hard hitting truth that a change was needed in me and not in the people that I had something against or the people that did me wrong came on several occassions, until a day when the hit was so hard and unexpectedly I was in tears. I determined I needed to do something about it. Who could help me most but the One who knows me most. I was sincere and open before God in prayer. I poured out my heart to Him about how I felt and how this rage and thoughts were getting the better of me. I fasted and prayed. I got a hold of scriptures concerning what I was going through. Best to say these scriptures (Word of God) were arsenals in my battle against anger, and bad thoughts.

What patterns had to break in order for you to become who you are now?

What often fueled the drive in the wrong direction (wrong because the actions taken, and words spoken were most certainly harmful, hurtful, and divisive). Conniving thoughts and vindictive plots that played in my mind.

I had to decide and take control of these scenes that played in my mind. At times it was easy to let those thoughts play and build a plot that will amass to me having my way and getting the better of someone else.  It was easy to play catch up or rewind these scenes and determine in my mind  the best outcome for me and not so much for whoever had offended me or I had an issue with.

I must say, one could easily excuse such a way of thinking, especially when most of these came about when someone had wronged me.
At first the plots remained thoughts until they were sooner played out physically.

Philippians 4:8 And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise.

2 Corinthians 10:5 – We destroy every proud obstacle that keeps people from knowing God. We capture their rebellious thoughts and teach them to obey Christ

These are the scriptures I committed to memory and armed myself with. I would speak this and use these scriptures as a base for praying to overcome. When the opportunity of rehearsing the wrongs done against me or any thoughts that were not good presented themselves, I would remember these scripture, speak them out, mutter them, or think about them and pray. Most times I would be intentional in thinking the good I could do to those that have wronged me and will wrong me. I determined in my mind the good to do if unpleasant situations were to happen, I would practise it when they actually did.

Who are you now?

I can now say I am at peace within me and a man of peace. Caring and not driven by rage. Importantly I am His (Christ’s) and there is so much more He is working out in me for the better. I sure am more than what I have shared above but importantly I am His.
The unfolding of certain events and the manner in which I acted or reacted, coupled with what others had said to me and about me made it evident that something had taken place. A change had occurred. Reflecting, and seeing who I am now, The Change truly did come about by my surrendering to Christ and choosing to do life with Him. I asked for His help, and quite honestly He had already extended help a long while back, but I finally decided to accept and receive His help and The Change speaks for itself.

K. David Amoah

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Let Go and Let God

Who did you used to be
I was always lacking trust, in trusting that things would be ok for me. I didn’t have any real direction and felt very lost.

When did you know you wanted to change
When it started happening and I got a glimpse of what life could be like with God. An older friend showed me her church and discussed her life style with me. I was 17. She didn’t tell me the stories of the Bible just about how she lives ect.

What patterns had to break in order for you to become who you are now?

Putting other relationships first. I would often over analyse things- I’ve had to learn to take a step back and give it too God.

Who are you now?

Still growing but enjoying it everyday.

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Embracing Your Truth

Dear Heavenly Father, I just want to say thank you for this day you have created, thank you for the joy you give us, thank you for your tender mercies, grace and love. Thank you for never giving up on us and for showing me what true love is. Thank you for your timing, thank you for being in control, thank you for the opportunities and the people you put in our live to grow us. Thank you for knowing us by name and caring for us individually. Thank you for being a way maker, the best comforter and deliverer. Thank you for the liberty we have in Christ, the freedom you bring. Lord any aspect of anyone’s life who comes across this blog who feels unsatisfied with their lives and where they are, Lord fill them up with your presence, let there be an outpouring of the Holy Spirit upon the body of Christ. Help us to edify and build one another up instead of tearing each other down. Reveal to us anyone we may have offended so that we can make a right with them. Lord be a lamp to our feet, light our paths and help us to be the best versions of our selves. Let there be an increase of you O God in our lives, and let us decrease and take away the pressures of what other people think we should be, take away every burden and anxiety which we possess which is hindering our effectiveness for you O Lord.

In Jesus Name Amen

This is an introduction to a new chapter of my blog which I want to develop. It involves being transparent and that vulnerability of sharing your story. A lot of the time we try to cover our wounds and not so perfect past, pretending that everything is okay, when secretly we are hurting in silence. Sadly this happens a lot. I feel like God has placed in my heart to add a Testimonial element to my blog, this involves you. I want it to be more engaging.

I was watching a Sarah Jakes, women’s conference on YouTube called ‘Never Stop Becoming’ and it inspired my approach to how the testimonial element will come to life. Every season has a purpose and God will make your story beautiful. Sarah Jakes mentioned that often people will hurt silently while projecting confidence, that we put on this role of being okay when we are not. Being scared of the response you will receive.

Our story, our truth is evidence of God’s great power and he deserves to get the Glory from our lives. Transparency is key to embracing who you are.

And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

 Romans 8:28

And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.

2 Corinthians 12: 9-10

Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think any thing as of ourselves; but our sufficiency is of God;

2 Corinthians 3: 5

Now the Lord is that Spirit: and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty.

2 Corinthians 3: 17

Here is my story and the introduction to ‘Embracing your truth’ season, I hope you gain something from it. I have learned through my story, to Never Settle for anything less than God’s best for you, no counterfeit will compare.

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